Well I have been married to my husband for 25 years. I started gaining weight about 8 years into our marriage. So for about 18 years I have fought being obese. Then my daughter was diagnosed with a rare life-threatening infection that turned our lives upside down. I started eating my way through the stress and depression from fighting with Doctors, Hospitals, insurance and insurance companies
The Weight Gain:
I felt that I never fit in with my family (Husband and two daughters. They were all fit and I couldn't stop thinking that everyone around me was thinking while we were out in public “Why is he with her???”. I couldn't enjoy simple affection from my husband. When he would put his arm around me or try to hold my hand I would cringe the entire time because I thought everyone around me was judging me. I remember sitting at a softball game my husband was coaching and I couldn't even focus because I was so paranoid that everyone was looking at me. I was the misfit. I had made the decision to accept that I was going to be overweight and miserable for the rest of my life.
The Moment of Change:
I was going though all the insurance stuff with my daughter and within this period realized I had an opportunity to possibly have surgery . Everyone was against it , including my husband who I didn’t tell until I had to go to my overnight sleep study appointment. I made a decision that it was either now or never. My husband was scared for me and didn’t even speak to me for two weeks but I did it because I felt it was my last chance.
A New Life:
I didn’t realize how much I missed the affection from my husband. I had forgotten what it felt like to be touched, even in the most simple way like holding my hand or putting his arm around me. A while after surgery he reached over and put his are around me and I felt this jolt of electricity shoot through my body . It was as if I were a teenager again and all of the emotions and affections were re-awakened. It was crazy and it’s been like that ever since. I’m skateboarding with my daughter now, I go hiking with friends every weekend! I’m going to be learning how to surf with my family this weekend. This is something they all have been doing all along.
Living an active life style that I finally get to be a part of. I have lost a total of 100lbs.